So I am severely sleep deprived, and working an exhaustive job (temporary)…and trying to sleep without heat. It got to 15 above here last week and I thought I would freeze to death…but my daughter’s super warm sleeping bag kept me alive. ..but really I am ready to go, asking God to take because I have had enough. I am done.

I broke down and cried, begging God to show me what to do…

Since the Nazis can hear everything that goes on, it was a source of amusement for them. They had a party to celebrate it. Not kidding. They were thrilled that they broke me.

As a side note, please don’t think that whomever is elected will change things. Do not trust anyone in Washington…

I was thinking about the last post and how much I have been messed with since getting divorced…

I had under 30k afterwards to work with.

5k went towards care of the children because he only paid 20k in child support for 3 kids.

But before the mercury took over my health, I had tried to buy an apt house in a nearby town. It was affordable and small enough that I could handle it myself. Bank refused to loan the money, even

though I with my ex had a good credit rating and had a rental that was fixed up after purchase.

So then I tried to buy a laundry in another town. The owner called a school board member who was friends with the ex bil. The owner refused to sell to me after that. This bil is the same one who took out a life ins policy on me…setting me up to fail and then profiting off it…

So it’s not that I didn’t try to take of myself financially…both of these would have been great passive incomes so I could have taken care of myself and the kids.

And when things were going downhill because of the devastating mercury effects, these could have been income when I was without a job.

So then the question is … why was I denied a bank loan with a good credit rating for the apt bldg?

The laundry is a good example of the secret society at work…keep those who aren’t members from…buying or selling.

So it has already been happening.. only a soft slide towards it.

I am so sick of these people…literally, a parade going past me while I try to do job searches and stuff at the library.

Amd when I went to another town inhopes of getting a job, the gangs were there the first night coming one right after another. Some of these creeps had their children out at one a.m. while stalking me. You are the ones they should be looking in to.

They actually pit a bus in front of me when I was parked at a state park watching the sun come up over the mountains. Bus stopped, lights flashing,. I realized I was being set up so they could take a picture of this scene and Photoshop it in to make or look like I was a perv at a bus stop. It was a state park, not a bus stop.

Just ready to be done with these morally bankrupt evil people.

Other stuff–

A place on town used to offer free showers to the homeless. I went there to get a shower today and was turned away…. Because… Of covid19….

…see we can’t let you wash yourself because of illness…

We can’t have people getting clean when there is sickness…

Does anyone else find that insane??

Additionally, I was supposed to get help with propane to heat and cook with and warm water to sponge bathe but I never got it. I am out of propane until Tues,

And Idont get unemployment either.

And no covid bucks either although others at work did get it while they still worked.

I think it it part of the end time mark of the beast . if you join them or at least on the fence, you get relief money.

There is a good video on the srk of the covenant àppearing around this time when you will no longer be able to buy or sell without worshiping the evil one. Growing your own food will be critical.

I had forgotten about Cynthia making this video awhile back…

This was all still new to me and I just could not see my ex as that evil, even though, yes, he was abusive.

…but we went to church together. We were married in a Catholic church. Our babies were baptized. So you can see how utterly confusing this all is and how it creates a cognitive dissonance — a fancy schmancy term for messing with your head when you are presented with two opposing views.

So when I first saw this video of Cynthia’s, I just could not accept what she was saying…I thought I knew my ex very well when I married him, after dating for a solid year prior to marriage, but then again, we broke up a lot the first year — I broke up with him the first time (listen to your instincts, ladies) and then he broke up with me several times after that. I realize now that he was wearing me down. this is what they do…manipulative to the extreme.

But Cynthia has it down. She has clued in with what has been done to those of us who were not satanists being targeted and married to bring us to satanic worship. Cynthia also clues in on destroying any outside relationships, as my ex’s family did with my once close family. My brothers and sisters were loyal to one another before this evil.

She also has a line on them having children and using them. Bringing more souls to the evil one…

Okay, so this is my belief, and you are welcome to disagree…

I believe the 12 stones mentioned in Revelation 21 are hints of the protection qualities of them that the Creator gave us.

God knew all of this was going to happen and I don’t believe for a second that He would leave us without protection. I believe He put His Spirit in everything He created.

So here are the 12 stones:

1. Jasper (red stone)

2. Sapphire

3. Agate

4. Emerald

5. Onyx

6. Ruby

7. Chrysolite (greenish-yellow stone found in volcanic areas)

8. Beryl (Aquamarine, which is another form of Emerald, so this stone must have some really great qualities to be mentioned twice)

9. Topaz

10. Turquoise (The Native folks have long known of the protection and healing of turquoise.)

11. Jacinth (Zircon)

12. Amethyst

The Twelve Gates also had 12 pearls. When I first began to have visions and dreams, I kept seeing Pearls. I’m not sure if this is what those meant, but I do believe it was significant.

Almost every one of these stones I have and I do believe I was being Guided by God’s Helpers to get them for protection. I have noticed that they do protect and heal one. I just wanted to pass this along for those of you needing help with protection and healing. God Bless us all…especially those of us hurting right now.

Thinking of my own situation, I feel that there was a plan in place for decades. For one thing, there are just two many coincidences between my divorce and my parents.

A woman replaced the assistant my Dad had, they had an affair. End of marriage. My story was the same, with sex used as a weapon, raping me in the middle of the night without consent. Rape is a HUGE thing with these evil people.

So, it would seem that satanists deliberately married non-satanists to try to get more innocents to join via the satanist parent. Divorces helped weaken families, and I believe that was the plan, so that children could be taken away from the parent who was not one of the evil ones.

I am still wrestling with trying to make sense of it all. I have seen them use coercion and manipulation and deception to persuade those resistant to them. The young ones have no idea what they have gotten themselves in to.

Without going in to too much detail, I am dealing with someone I love and care deeply about being taken in by the evil one.

It hits too close to home and I am having a real hard time dealing with it. I am angry at God for allowing it to happen, angry at myself for not being able to prevent it, although I know that everyone has to follow their own path as the Creator granted us all free will to decide whether we are going to go towards evil or towards good. And the ones that accused me of evil are in fact the ones worshiping the evil one and drawing my family member into it.

I would never go towards the evil one, but this does shake my faith to the core.

I can’t make sense of it.

My whole life was a lie.

So I was traveling trying to find a job/another place to live….hoping that there is some community that hasn’t been subjected to the evil goings on. Yeah, not seeing one. If anything, it appears things are getting worse.

For example, I am traveling down the road at night because of once again being awakened by loud noise (a semi engine that sounded like it was running in high gear when the driver parked right next to my window where I sleep. Every night with a few exceptions, I am awakened by noise every 2 hours. Again, this is to keep someone from being fully rested and also interferes with the healing process because your body heals itself while you are asleep.)

So I get up out of bed and leave the safe rest area and start going down the highway when a dark blue/black truck pulls alongside and stays just behind the driver door. He stays with me like that for awhile. It was enough time to make a single lady nervous while driving at night. He finally backed off and sped up with his two buddies in two different trucks that had passed me earlier. I had seen them together on the highway earlier, so I knew they were traveling together.

It is really difficult to find a safe place to park at night. They have closed most of the rest areas. I parked in one that was secluded, thinking I would be able to rest without so much noise interference. Um, no. People were coming in the middle of the night to use the restroom. And I heard something walking around my camper after I had climbed into bed. What makes that even creepier is that the crickets were chirping happily…and then they all of a sudden went quiet. If you know anything about nature, when the animals go quiet…there is something really wrong.

Yeah, so, with all the other happenings, like them hitting my camper and jumping on top of it and the other stuff, I pretty much am limited to where I can go.

Which makes the next gossipy gangstalker tale even more serious:

So a national chain that shall go unnamed, allows campers in the parking lot as long as you don’t make a nuisance of yourself. It is reasonably safe, but the stalkers still come by every 2 hours, blaring the stereo or setting off the car alarms, or other such noises. But they don’t like witnesses and that is why they tried more violent stuff when I was parked on a city street with low lighting.

I wasn’t in town more than 2 hours when it starts in again. A woman who appears to have deliberately parked out by me (because I am parked waay out there), sees me dump a brown liquid outside my door.

She immediately goes to the manager and complains about me dumping the liquid.

Know what it was? COFFEE!

This self-righteous hmmmhmmm complained about me to the manager because I had dumped less than a cup of coffee on the pavement.

And she knew it was me in the camper. She had deliberately parked back by me so that she could “catch” me doing something “wrong.”

…because, you know, dumping coffee on pavement is against the law.

So now she has jeopardized my staying in the only safe place in town with her self-righteousness. And she won’t think a thing about it if they tear my trailer apart or rape me some night…she will tell herself that I am a bad person, therefore, I “deserve” that kind of treatment. Those folks that like to use Karma as a reason to wish ill will on someone are the same types.

And she also made the management suspicious that I am a shoplifter. I am most certainly not.

But there are gangstalkers who pretend to be on the side of the law who are robbing them blind.

The thief theme started early with these liars. I was accused of stealing money and jewelry, which is yet another lie. But that hasn’t stopped them from repeating the lie so that I am scorned yet again for something I haven’t done.

I have come to realize that the evil ones are sending stalkers into stores that I am in to steal stuff. No sh*t. Then they try to say that because stuff is stolen while I am in the store, that therefore I “MUST BE” doing it. Again, there is no proof, no evidence, never had any criminal charges brought against me (because they know damn well that I am innocent and that is why they won’t bring charges because there are apparently some honest judges left who would throw the case out of court.)

And the stalkers are the ones doing it. The ones claiming to be on the side of the law wanting to get rid of undesirables–when they are the criminals.

Messed up world we are living in now…

So, a follow up to the previous post…

I know that some people got involved with satanism not knowing the full picture. They were snagged by sex and fun and belonging to a group, but were unaware of the evil.

So perhaps they want to get out like Sharon Tate, but have been threatened if they try to leave.

Well, you are going to be threatened either way —

–if you join them and want out, they will kill you.

–if you don’t join them, they will kill you. I have had my brake lines cut at the top of the mountain that The Tower is on in Wyoming. This is referred to Bear Lodge by the Native folk and another name by the evil ones. My brakes were fine before I got to the top of the mountain. But I lost them at the top of this steep incline. I threw the truck into 1st gear and made it down okay. Could not drive it very fast when trying to find a mechanic. Then my sister would not help me with fixing the brakes. Again, God was with me and I got a job to get the brakes fixed.

Then a bolt removed from my truck which should have resulted in the truck flipping over at 60 mph and landing on its top; I was hit from behind last year at such force that it bent the bumper and frame ( think they were hoping the airbag would deploy and snap my neck). They were giving me a heart attack where the room started to go black and I started to see my relatives coming for me because my spirit was leaving my body. So it’s not that they haven’t tried. But my God is bigger than their satan, and it’s not my time yet…

So we are all going to die, one way or another.

It is better to die with God than to die with satan.

Cynthia also has another video up about evil ones putting dead animals in her yard…but I have a concern with this video because she mentions the pot roast that was stolen…but that was done like over a year ago, so she talks like it just happened, so either it has happened twice or her mind is being messed with by the evil ones. Hard to say at this point, because we know they have developed the technology to control a person’s brain…

So I mentioned in a prior blog on families and gangstalking that I was on my way to a job interview 40 minutes away (when still in Indiana), when there were 3 dead hawks placed along the roads.

It is unusual to see one dead hawk, but not 3! They are wise to cars and avoid them for the most part. It was clearly a message. My sister confirmed it was a threat by the evil ones when she knocked on my door after getting home from work, and held a hawk feather in her hands. My sister has never done anything like that. I don’t believe she knew about the dead hawks placed there along the road. But I am sure that her husband did. Evil man.

The dead rabbit also brought to mind a movie about satanists back in the 70s (sorry, can’t remember the name). In this movie, a couple with a small dog were traveling around in a Winnebago RV. RVing was a new thing at the time–only in the previous 10 years had camping by trailer become a “thing”.

So going on recall, this couple was camping and enjoying themselves when they happened upon a satanic sacrifice. The immediately left, but the satanists followed them. The couple had left their little dog in the camper while they were getting groceries (or something). They came back to find their little dog hanging from a noose. Really graphic for the 70s and still upsets me when I think about it.

There were several satanic movies at the time, one by Roman Polanski that openly praised satan. This movie was just released before his wife, Sharon Tate, and his baby, were murdered. I believe now that it was a satanic sacrifice by Polanski. From what I have read, Sharon, a formerly religious woman, had joined a satanic cult but wanted out with her baby on the way. She did not want her baby raised by these evil people.

And the sky looks too, too, weird, doesn’t it?

We had a horrible wind “storm” here a week ago. I got a terrible migraine with it. Today is the first day that I have woken up without a migraine. Terrible pain. Whole right side of my brain flaming hot. Something else I noticed — my cell phone battery was drained. It had a half life left.

(A side note — just now a young stalker thug trots her little girl past me. This is an adult Fiction section away from the rest of the pests that keep bothering me when I am in the library. But like all the rest, she tells her young daughter to walk several feet in front of her. I am away from the main walkway if someone wanted to look at the books here. NOBODY comes up here…or at least they didn’t before I came up here.

Que the lie to be told. See, wherever I go to get away from them, because I am in a more secluded part of the library now, they follow me so they can make up their fake evidence. I really am so tired of this.)