For many discussions on the web about God, it saddens me to see the evil ones declaring there is no God or that God is punishing us with bad things happening to us. I was raised that way, too. Thought every bad thing that happened to me was because I had done something wrong and was being punished by God.

So what I have to say will no doubt be controversial but it comes from my heart and a truth-seekers soul.

The Old Testament refers to a God who is jealous and punishes us with the flood and that Noah was the only one to listen to God.

Knowing how satan loves to destroy things and hates the earth, I am thinking it was satan who sent the flood. God warned Noah and others. The blacks, the Asians, the Native folk, because all those races survived. And they all had free will to decide whether they wanted to listen or not.

I blamed God for my marriage failing. I had prayed and prayed that my ex would see how much he hurt me and that the marriage would stay together. When it didn’t, I blamed God. I didn’t realize at the time that there were things hidden from me and very bad for my soul, and that was why the marriage did not last. And that is how I view things now — sometimes not getting what you want is a blessing in disguise. And looking for something good to come out of a bad situation.

I pretty much think all the Old Testament is about the old ways before Jesus came. Really, satanism with incest, bestiality, multiple wives, murder, et cetera.

The evil one has been around for a long time, and the war between good and evil as long.

This is the story of the Long Walk of the Navajo/Dine.

The story of Kit Carson living with them and then destroying them when they had shared their lives and gave him knowledge of where they kept food stores, the animals, etc.

Notice the upside down star at 06:51. Yep. The evil ones have been around a long time and the Native folks who kept traditional spirituality meant they recognized God in every living thing. They did not go to church once a week and then forget about God the rest of the week. They maintain contact with God in Creation constantly. They don’t separate themselves at any time as others do. This is a huge threat to the evil one….because the moment you separate from God, you are vulnerable to the evil being.

In other news, still have not received my tax refund, stimulus money. It’s now past the 16 weeks they say you need to wait.

And now I have to unhook my electric from the camper because even though there is a housing shortage and no low income housing, you can’t have a camper hooked up to electric here. Makes no sense to me.

This puts me in a very vulnerable position with regards to gangstalking. The saving grace about the camper is that I had 1. privacy 2. my potty 3. sleeping in the camper instead of the truck which makes me vulnerable to the stalkers who pretend they are doing some service for the town but are instead stalking and tormenting me. As I said before, every night, no matter what time I put out the light, a car with loud music will go by, people talking will walk by, dogs will bark, etc. Anything for noise to keep you from settling down and going to sleep. It’s now normal for me to be awake half the night because every time I settle down, someone will come by making noise.

One couple got into a screaming match outside my camper at 1:30 a.m.

Four cats have adopted me and bless some good folks here, I’ve gotten food for them. So this young dude comes by with a dog on a leash…and he saw the cats and just stood there not walking his dog, while the dog scared the kitties off.

And last Sunday was unnerving. I’m parked next to a garage owned by the kind older man who let me park here. He rents it out and there were a bunch of folks here. They decided they would have a conversation about getting juicy burgers (they know I am food insecure right now and hungry a lot) and then they were leaning against my camper. I called out to them to get off the camper. So then they pushed against it, which caused it to rock slightly. And one of them had a dog off its leash (not allowed here), and it kept trying to get into my camper. I had to yell repeatedly to keep it from coming in.

So yeah, being out of my camper makes me even more vulnerable.

Need some prayers right now. Please pray that I get the money due and can get out. Thanks.